Simcha

Hello all. Thank you so very much for your outpouring of brachos and congradulations, it was much appreciated. Being so busy, I had no time to write and so much going on with my vort, my brother's bar Mitzvah, my brother getting engaged right after me, I have so much to thank Hashem that he has really given me so much simcha. I am back in Yeshiva until Peasach. It is going to be hard to be away from my Kalla for so long. I told her instead of getting me a watch she should come visit me. She promised me she would. There is so much more for me to focus on now, now that I am engaged. I don't need to focus on looking at women anymore, I don't need to date, I am a happy camper,now all I need to do is to study to be a good husband and earn a living. I am looking forward to raising children and being a loving spouse. Finding meaning in my learning and appreciating every obscure Daf of Gemarah is still a challenge. I don't know if I am cut out for learning in Kollel. I believe in order to get paid for Kollel one should e an outstanding Talmid Chacham and be involved in community matters, which I am not cut out to do. So, I still hang in balance as to what my next move will be after we get married. I need to earn a living but I am still undecided as to what contribution I can give to society with thousands of older and wiser people have been working on. I am still green at this. I daven that Hashem should give me a break through.

Quick Update

Hello, I have a short few moments to write, a lot has happened, so I will try to condence a long story into a few moments. B"h the engagment is official. After a spell of cold feet, tension headaches, lengthy deliberations, I finally proposed. The facinating part of this whole ordeal is that getting engaged doesn't make life any easier. New propblems replaced old ones. New challenges arise that require delicate handling. Life is complex. But I took the jump, so bring it on. I'll tune you in to more when I take a deep breath.

Hey there...

Hi :)
EN asked me to check his email for him today since he is a little bit under the weather, but iy'h he'll have a speedy refuah shleimah. I was privileged to read all of your thoughtful messages and ideas on how he should propose, they were all very cute. If he decides to use any of them I will act very surprised. The idea of asking my sister was a good one, only i don't have a sister, so your advice is, I'm sure very well received by him. Thank you all very much, hatzlacha rabba and b'shah tovah to all of you :)

Ahhhhh...

YAY! B"h I just finished my last final. YAY! Now I can relax and think about important things like: where will I get the ring, how am I going to pay for it, do I get down on my right knee or left knee or both (but maybe that is a problem because of bowing to avodah zarah...)Do I wear my hat when I propose, what do I say when I meet her parents, her brother? What should I say, "Would you like to marry me?", or "Will you marry me?", or "I love you and I want to marry me, will you be mine?" or other variations such as these. [Place your suggestion in the comments]. Also, should I tell her about the time I did... or should I wait until after I give the ring and see what she does with it?

A Little Peek

So, some of you are interested in knowing what is going on with my relationship; so I'll tell you. I haven't proposed yet. I am going home to LA for my brother's Bar Mitzvah in about 9 days, and plan on meeting her parents, and then propose. Her mother has already met my parents and B"h things are moving. In the meanwhile we are speaking to each other on the phone daily and generally counting down the days until we can be together. I have sent her pictures of me, reflecting my daily routine, and she has sent me a few of her. I don't want to write how I am planning to propose in case she happens to check this blog. I have told her the address once but I don't think she reads it. The biggest difficulty I have found so far is to maintain her trust in me. I have broken a few promises, unfortunitally. Maintaining trust in overcoming taivos is by far the most difficult thing I have come across. That about raps it up. I have finals today in philosophy, so wish me luck.