Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Guilt

"Where has he gone?"

"Why hasen't he touched me?"

"Has he forgotten about me?"

"For many a weeks (months?) now, he hasen' t caressed me, spoken to me, even looked at me, I feel so low, was it something I said? Something to turn him off? I feel so lonely. I want him near me. I want him to look at me with those adorable cute eyes, and tell me he loves me. I want him to sing to me. He used to kiss me tenderly. I love it when he sings. Why the forgetfulness? Is he hurting inside? I can't tell, he doesn't want to communicate. He blocks me out. I can't tell you the anguish I feel when he doesn't even think about me. How long is this going to last? Should I speak to his boss? Maybe he will knock some sense into his thick skull. It will hurt him, I know, but maybe it is worth it." Why is he ignoring my advice? Doesn't he know our history together? How we used to be together is matrimonial bliss? He used to tell me such kind words, how he loved me, he would never leave me, he would care for me always. But now I don't know. He seems to have forgot all that."


Why, oh why, has he not opened my lonely pages?

9 Comments:

Blogger fsgsf said...

Ah! Guilt!! I have lost my guilt about many things a long long time ago!! Is that bad? I dont know. It is just the fact!

Peace!

NJ from NJ

12:42 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

awesome writing...

1:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

it almost sounds like one of the prakim of shir hashirim.

1:17 PM  
Blogger TRW said...

I really like this. Very pointed and poignent

2:42 PM  
Anonymous delusions of grandeur said...

Are you coming out of the closet? Who was he?

5:03 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

lol.

to me it sounds like a girl writing this to him and he feels guilty.

5:31 PM  
Blogger EN said...

Ummmm, *Face beet red* it is my gemarah talking to me.

5:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

that is why i said it sounds like shir hashirim...bnai yisrael forsaking hashem after all He has done for us.

1:01 AM  
Anonymous S said...

that's cute, your gemorah missing you. and sad also. but you can still get back into it.

1:09 PM  

Post a Comment

<< Home