Anger-the Biggest Loser

Last week I became angry at someone for a split moment. I was chatting with someone on-line and they were being very polite to me and they were doing me a favor even though they had no idea who I was. This person was going all out to really be nice and caring to me. In a fit of rage and self contempt I hurled an insult that really came because of a deep unconcious hatred of myself. Becuase of that I lost out. The remorse I had over shabbos because of my stupidity and the loss of not gaining a friend and the assistance I needed is gnawing at me. If you read this please forgive me.