Painful Encounters

Realationships are rewarding and painful. Let me explain. The pain I am refering to is guilt. If someone loves me and I do not care enough to keep my promises, and I continue to not do things that are asked of me as a friend, the little respect that I had earned with that friend is totally lost. Now you may ask why do I do it if I know that it is wrong; and the reason for that is because I can not or will not try to improve myself. My obsessions and passions overcome my reasoning and I am out of control and I do not know how to stop-or maybe I do but I am not willing to.